Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Are you just so excited?
The past 2 days I have been sick, like puking everything I eat sick. Not cool. You see this is the downside to my job. I catch what the kids have and then I'm too sick to work. Yesterday, I layed in bed most of the day because I was too nauseous to move. By the evening I ventured out of the bedroom to sit in front of my computer. My friend Tony called and I told him that I hadn't felt well. He immediately said, "Oh, because of the morning sickness?" You see he thinks it's funny to joke that I'm pregnant. Whenever Nathan hears this he immediately blocks his ears as if that will keep it from really happening. I have moments when I see pregnant women and think "aw that looks fun." Then I go to work and snap out of it. I'm not ready to give up my selfish habits; sleeping late, playing video games, surfing myspace for hours, buying things for myself. All of which will surely end once baby comes. But you know what I dread the most about being pregnant? People asking me if I'm excited. Just like they did when I was engaged. Every time I wanted to respond with, "No, I'm so upset that I am voluntarily marrying the person I love more than life. I can't believe I have to wear that beautiful dress and get married in a lovely church in front of everyone I know. Combined with the fact that we get tons of presents for doing something we already wanted to do. I'm bummed. Thanks for asking."